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24 February 2010 @ 03:10 am
[KHR fanfic] Strangers on a Train  
Title: Strangers on a Train
Summary: Yamamoto is just a passenger. Gokudera is just a stranger. They end up sitting across from each other on a train, but where does it take them?
Pairing: Yamamoto/Gokudera
Rating: PG-13
Notes: AU with some slice-of-life. There's 8059, really, if you squint extra hard.
Disclaimer: Katekyo Hitman Reborn doesn't belong to me.


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There's a man sitting across from him with silver hair and a mouthful of silver smoke.

"Hey," Yamamoto says to the man, "what's your name?"

"That's none of your damn business," the man replies, smashing his dying cigarette on the compartment wall and there's a sizzling sound as ashes burn on wooden veneer.

"Haha, but I just told you mine," Yamamoto says with a laugh, finding the man's rudeness refreshing.

"I never asked you to introduce yourself, moron," the man says, spitting his laugh back with a scowl before placing another cigarette between his lips.

Yamamoto thinks that his glaring green eyes really match well with silver.

 
***


On the train, everything goes by frame-by-frame in still-life motion; there's no accelerator pedal he can just press on like a fast-forward button that erases everything outside of metal frame and tinted windows. Even thoughts that usually rush by two hundred miles per hour start to brake and Yamamoto finds himself dwelling on unimportant things like how those bulky metal rings look too heavy on the man's skinny fingers. Or how those black boots and pants with crosses give him this gothic vibe that's kind of really interesting. In a good way.

"Hey, do you like horror movies?" Yamamoto asks, just because the man seems like he might.

"What the hell," the man says, and Yamamoto is drawn to the contrast of his black nails on white cigarette. "Stop asking stupid questions and fuck off."

"Haha," Yamamto says, "how about action movies, like James Bond or Indiana Jones?" The topic gets him excited. "The special effects look cool, don't you think? I really like the suspense, too, but things always works out in the end."

"What are you, a goddamn six-year-old?" the man says, and turns his head to look out the window. "Those movies are shit. Real life doesn't always work out so damn perfect all the time."

Yamamoto laughs. "Yeah, I guess you're right," he says, and notices for the first time the thin scars on the man's neck.


***


Another hour into the ride and Yamamoto is starting to get used to the rhythmic beat of moving metal. The other man has his eyes closed, looking like he's already asleep but his breathing isn't even.

The sunlight outside is heavy, and it's the perfect time for an afternoon nap, except–

"No."

"What?" Yamamoto straightens up and looks at the man across from him, whose eyes are still closed but his mouth is  slurring unidentifiable words save for ones like fuck. shit. die.

"Hey, wake up," Yamamoto says. It doesn't work.

"Hey," he tries again, hand reaching out for a shoulder. That's when he almost gets his arm twisted off.

"Who the fuck–" The man says, break-neck alarm in dilated pupils and tense jaw, his face suddenly two inches away from Yamamoto's. Then recognition sets in. He lets go.

"Are you okay?" Yamamoto asks, and thinks maybe he should ask himself that question first. His arm still burns from the almost-torn muscles.

"I'm fine," the man replies curtly, doesn't look him in the eye now. "Shit," he says, "I fucking fell asleep." The words sound like a sin.

Yamamoto doesn't say anything for a while, letting the tension collect into smoke from one. two. three. four cigarettes.

"Hey," he finally says, "it's okay."

"What the hell do you know," the man begins to say, then he shuts his mouth and he's looking like he wants to say thank you and fuck you in the same sentence.

"Forget it," the man says.

***


Everyone has nightmares, just like how everyone has bad memories. It's normal – the sweat, the panting, the hitch of breath and the jump of heart like you're diving into death.

It's normal, Yamamoto wants to say to the man, but it's been an hour since and the right time for that has long been left behind in those shadowy groves in the countryside.

They're in the mountains now, the train curving like a snake through familiar territory, its tail wrapping around the base of a rocky hill.

"I'm bored," Yamamoto says instead.

"So go count sheeps in your head or something."

"But that's boring." And before the other man can cuss him off for whining, he says, "Want to play a game?"

"Hell no."

"But I haven't even said what kind of game yet." Yamamoto laughs.

"No means fucking no. Get it through your head, dumbass."

"How about we tell each other stories then? My dad used to do that when I was bored as a kid." Yamamoto says, and almost adds a haha in the end, but doesn't.

"Then call your dad up and ask him to tell you a story. You're so fucking annoying."

"Well, um," Yamamoto says and swallows, "my dad's dead."

There's an expected silence.

"Shit, fine. I'll tell you a story then." The man leans back in his seat and snarls. "There used to be a boy in a happy family. Then one day, his mom disappears. Then he finds out that she died. Then he finds out that his dad killed her. Then his sister almost poisoned him to death and shit never got better from there. Happy fucking ending."

Yamamoto's mouth is opened in a what the fuck but the words don't come out.

Guess the telling-a-story thing isn't such a good idea after all, he thinks. "I'm sorry," he says.

"What the hell are you sorry for? It's just a story."

"Yeah," Yamamoto says. Then he remembers the man's cigarettes, the scars, the fucks and the dies

Yeah. Everyone has nightmares.


***


"Hey, when the hell is your stop?"

"Huh?"

"I said, you idiot, when the hell is your stop?"

"Oh," Yamamoto says, lamely, not expecting the other man to start a conversation. "In half an hour, maybe?"

"You don't even fucking know?" The man scoffs and looks like he's about take out his pack again.

"Well, I haven't been back in a while," Yamamoto says and scratches his neck, "I...don't visit my dad's grave often. Guess I'm a bad son, huh?"

The man watches Yamamoto fidget for a while before asking, "How did he die?"

It's a little too straight-forward and Yamamoto pales, swallows again. His breath shakes.

"Oh, well, um," He feels the pressure under the man's gaze and stumbles, "fel– he fell down a cliff." Someone pushed him down. He doesn't say that.

"That sucks," the man says, and takes out a cigarette then. Yamamoto has the urge to ask him, "Where is your dad?"

He doesn't say that either.

"At least there's a body," the man says, and Yamamoto chokes. "When my mom died, she was blown into so many pieces we couldn't even give her a proper funeral."

Yamamoto doesn't know how to react to that; it's probably the first full sentence the man has said without a cuss word, and he thinks that it probably means something.

"Thanks," Yamamoto says, watching the rocky hills shrink into mounds and catching a glimpse of flatland ahead.


***


When the mountains clear, Yamamoto recognizes the scenery; the windmills on those fresh-green grass and houses that scatter here and there like an unfinished puzzle.

"My stop is coming up," Yamamoto says, his heart suddenly hitching up and expanding in his ribcage. He looks at this place where he used to grow up, where his dad was murdered, then he looks at the man in front of him. "Um. Yeah. Guess this is it," he says, and leans down to pick up his luggage from the floor.

Before he gets up from his seat to stand by the door, he stops and asks, "Hey, where's your stop?"

"That's none of your damn business," the man replies like he did when they had first met, but it sounds less scorching this time. 

Yamamoto smiles. "Well then," he says as the train stops, "Goodbye, stranger."

The man looks at him one last time before the metal double doors slam together like an iron fist and says, "Goodbye, Takeshi."

***

Hey stranger, Let us travel together
Pass these mountains and these trees
To build a house over buried memories,
And paint new skin over our scarred feet.
I can help you find your missing piece,
And maybe we're even a perfect fit.
But let us say our goodbyes now,
For we are merely two strangers
Traveling in a moment's dream.





 
 
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( 28 comments — Leave a comment )
[info]melissa_42 on February 24th, 2010 03:46 pm (UTC)
Nice! Yamamoto would definitely try to strike up a conversation with a stranger, and Gokudera would try to keep to himself as much as possible. Great job!
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 24th, 2010 09:02 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Haha yeah, Yamamoto would talk a lot just because he's bored and annoy the hell out of Gokudera XD
[info]kinsugi on September 27th, 2010 12:50 pm (UTC)
Wow. Your story was short and spare but it grabbed and twisted my heart. Your writing had a rhythm that fit being on a train, that continuous underlying subtle shifting and movement, and the few, short sentences they actually spoke to each other were dense with history and emotion in such spare words!

Nothing ever really happened... yet so much happened underneath the inaction. Didn't want them to part at the end; wanted them to meet again; wanted them to take away some of each others' pain. It reminded me somehow of old Rod Serling writing; nothing would happen during a half hour, but the undertones would carry the story. But where his was journalistic, hard-hitting dialog for a visual medium, your writing was far more beautiful and poetic. (Was the poem at the end yours?)

Amazing short story, beautifully written and deeply moving. Loved the characterizations; you didn't let Yamamoto turn into caricature, which I've seen in other stories, and your Gokudera.... your Gokudera is awesome. Powerful and real and painful. I want more.

***
Unfortunatey you can't do anything about my one complaint: Didn't used to happen but now a lot of pages on LJ won't rewrap when the window changes, although fresh typing like this change wrap just fine.) With vision problems, I have to enlarge the font to be able to read it, which means unwrapped lines go way off to the right and I have to move each line back and forth to read. (Theory: it's from pages that were cut and pasted in.) Annoying enough that I read a lot less on LJ than I used to and have missed a ton of fics.

But I'll be reading the rest of your stories for certain, and would appreciate your recs for other good writers in the fandom! I'm new to the anime, the fandom, and love of Gokudera, which hit hard during his battle with Gamma. Thanks for a fine, satisfying read.
[info]kinsugi on September 27th, 2010 12:51 pm (UTC)
And I have an answer; it's LJ's formatting that won't wrap, because my post was wrapping fine until I posted it, but now the lines go way off to the right. Oh well.
[info]dicks on February 24th, 2010 04:04 pm (UTC)
Fantastic! I love Gokudera in this fic iedk why and Yamamoto for being Yamamoto. Is there going to be anymore of this? XDD Anyway write more plzzz \o/
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 24th, 2010 09:09 pm (UTC)
Haha, thanks bb~ but I don't think there'll be any more of this since I just wanted to show two people meeting for a period in time kinda thing. But the writing mode has hit me so I shall be writing more 8059 :D
[info]anikakinka on February 24th, 2010 04:16 pm (UTC)
"It's normal, Yamamoto wants to say to the man, but it's been an hour since and the right time for that has long been left behind in those shadowy groves in the countryside."
I love this sentence, it says so much.
Well, the whole fiction is nice <3 You can feel their relation even if they don't know each other.
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 24th, 2010 09:13 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much~

I'm really glad you can feel that there's a sort of connection between them even though they don't know each other since that's the kinda thing I was going for ♥
[info]daniakemi59 on February 24th, 2010 05:15 pm (UTC)
wow...really nice :D

like they said...yama is so yama x3 and gokkun is always piss of him
i want more too ;o;...write another chapter please? xD

the end was so cute :D, a little sad..but cute
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 24th, 2010 09:21 pm (UTC)
Aw, your comment made me very happy :)

Haha, Yama just never fails to get Goku pissed off no matter what universe they're in XD

I planned the ending to be a bit sad like that so I won't be writing more, but I'm really glad you liked it <3
[info]nathcoelho on February 24th, 2010 06:42 pm (UTC)
really like this fic! =)
good writtin
but with a wanting for more, at the end. =3
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 24th, 2010 09:24 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Haha, I'm kind of evil for leaving the ending like that but it's good to know you liked it~
[info]yamamotokun80 on February 24th, 2010 10:58 pm (UTC)
the conversation is very natural...
i love it...
hehehe...
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 25th, 2010 01:39 am (UTC)
Thank you! I wanted to write them in-character even if this is an AU~
[info]idioteva on February 24th, 2010 11:02 pm (UTC)
I can understand you urge to not write more or add a little bit at the end. I find that sometimes I want to write just a paragraph more but tell myself no, it's better without and in the end, it is. Just leaving things sometimes can be more dramatic.
I can feel with Gokudera in this fic. If someone started asking me random questions about movies on a train, I would be a bit freaked out to. I like how the pace wasn't rushed and thier bond was brought together slowly, it felt right. It's just so sad that they had to be brought together through pain.
I absolutely loved it \o/
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 25th, 2010 01:47 am (UTC)
lol, it's just like Yama to go start some random conversation with a stranger XD

Yeah, there's always the urge to write a more completed ending, but sometimes an open-ended ending is the best way to convey things, which is why I just left things like that and don't plan on continuing this. Also, I wanted this to be a more mellow, day-to-day life sort of thing so I'm glad you think the pace wasn't rushed.

Thank you for your kind comment hon~ Good to know you liked it ♥

[info]kchanlp on February 25th, 2010 04:01 am (UTC)
This was so nice! They're so IC... Yamamoto being so talkative and sociable while Gokudera is being all grumpy, haha! Aaaah, I don't know, everything was so perfect... The train as background reminded me of "Hills Like White Elephants" from Ernest Hemingway, but in a very different case. The boys talking about things so personal being strangers... Ah, i don't have words, it was just so good. Nice job! =)
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 25th, 2010 08:03 am (UTC)
Thank you so much for your wonderful comment~ It makes me really happy ♥

It was a lot of fun writing them as strangers, especially since Yamamoto still ends up annoying the hell out of Gokudera no matter what, lol. I haven't read "Hills Like White Elephants" but now I think I should :D

Thanks again for your kind words~ I'm glad you enjoyed it!
[info]kchanlp on February 25th, 2010 03:15 pm (UTC)
Haha, it's a nice story, but it just came to my head because of the train as background... XD
[info]pollinia on February 26th, 2010 09:43 pm (UTC)
Oh, this is so sad and wonderful. ;_;

I like the moment-in-time feel of this, like this is it, this is the last they're going to see each other in this universe and Gokudera knows it, but Yamamoto never will. It's really poignant, and well written, and it is such a contrast to the relationship they've built in canon which can feel so one-sided (with Yamamoto being the one work for friendship), but this shows how close Gokudera's gotten in return.

♥ to infinity for this.
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 26th, 2010 11:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you love ♥

I think Yamamoto knows it, too, that they'll never meet again, but he's always been the more optimistic one XD

Noez, I refuse to believe that their canon relationship is one-sided out of pure fangirl wishfulness, lol. But I think Gokudera's refusal to let people other than Tsuna in is what creates such wonderful possibilities in his relationship with Yamamoto. The angst that can come from that is <3
[info]nuakiire on February 28th, 2010 03:07 am (UTC)
I love AUs where the story wouldn't be the same with any other character. I mean, I found it so IC, that if it wasn't Dera and Yama it wouldn't be the same. I've read many AUs where I don't feel the characters but here it's perfect.

It's so like Yamamoto to start a conversation with a random interesting stranger, and it's so like Gokudera to be so closed at first. And then he opens up a little in his own way, I love it.

And the idea for the fic in general was really awesome.

Aaahhh I really hope you'll write more of them .3.
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 28th, 2010 06:14 am (UTC)
Thank you so much~ I'm really happy that you like this, especially since I don't usually write AUs.

I definitely agree that it wouldn't be the same if it wasn't them. There's just something about their opposite personalities that makes their interactions interesting, even in canon. Aw, I just love these two together XD
[info]tsubon on February 28th, 2010 05:20 pm (UTC)
OMG! I loved this so much! I love, love, love meeting on the train stories! This was so perfect for them. And the ending with Yama not knowing Gokudera's name still, even though they know intimate facts about each other. Baaaw, seriously, so perfect~ <3
[info]gloomy_gloo on February 28th, 2010 08:18 pm (UTC)
Aw, thank you! I like train stories, too, since there's such a spontaneous and fleeting feeling to them. I'm really glad you like this <3
[info]shishiruke on May 29th, 2011 04:18 am (UTC)
LMFAO. This made me fall over in laughter ~ I never
really bothered for this couple cause people always wrote
them (unbearably crappily) But I really enjoyed this story! >3< <333
[info]rurin on September 19th, 2011 11:07 am (UTC)
When I read the summary, I already knew this was going to be good. And it totally lived up to my expectations~
I really liked how subtle everything was, the way you wrote, and how IC these two were, even in an AU!

And the poem at the end was beautiful, too ;; Train stories always get me.
[info]gloomy_gloo on September 19th, 2011 10:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I had a lot of fun writing this subtle AU story about them so I'm always happy to hear that people enjoyed reading it :)
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